shitty today

How can I be so free and yet so busy?

I wonder.

If I close my eyes A LOT and breathe MORE... will I still feel compelled to multitask?

I feel as if I'm compressing every single thing that I want to do into my 3 days.

A few hours later, I will only have one day left.

What then?

I'm so revved up to do lots of things that I'm afraid I'm forgetting something.

SUNDAY IS TOO SHORT

Yes indeed, Sunday is friggin short.
I can't help but feel bad that it's over.
Another Monday is starting and I have no control over it.
But I really have to say this to my self: 

CHE,

✄ Slow the ef down.
✄ Give your self an ef break.

✄Frikkin cut your hair! There's something wrong when you look at your hair and you feel like crying at the thought of cutting it.
~~Hey! I wanna cut it! I just don't have the time or the money just yet...

✄Stop reading books which aren't great.. I mean, I know that you just have to give some authors a chance, but really.. read reviews first. DISAPPOINTMENT IS A BITCH.

✄SLEEP EARLIER! What are you? queen-insomniac? 
✄EAT LESS! You want to go to BORA, right? You want to fit in your swimsuit, right?

I just had to get those things off my chest. Now, I wanna sleep.

Peace out frigs. ✌

PICTURE OF THE DAY

MY SISTER AND I 

^___^

Don't we look awesome?

LOL

Hate is such a strong word.

I hate it that people often times treat me like an underdog and I can't say shit.

have you ever

Have you ever felt exhilarated while riding at the back of a motorcycle careening down into a spiral way of a parking lot?  -- i felt that.. today.

I also had the pleasure of drinking a javachip frappe from starbucks while riding at the back of a motorcycle.

It was a nice adventure.

I certainly feel like i reached something new. =)

confusion

I am so confused on which path to take next. I don't know what to do... God help me.

inadequate

Sometimes i just feel like i'm not good enough


like i'm INADEQUATE in everything.

what he did that made me fall in love with him all over again

he...

woke me up

led me in the middle of the ricefield while i whine about slipping and stumbling

held my hands

tied up my sombrero

washed my feet

got me water in the middle of the night

accompanied me to the washroom in the middle of the night and killed cockroaches for me

kissed my feet when it was all itchy and sore

cooked breakfast for me

hugged me to sleep

packed my snack

gave me a cane to help me walk in the field

secured my boots

drove me

let me ride at the back of his motorcycle anytime

listened to me

cared for me

awww =)

lab ettt

aanhin mo pa ang sexy kung ang mukha naman ay scary..

mabuti pang maging chubby..

at least yummy! ^_^

just got back

my farm days are over

i'm back to the real world

and the real deal is.....

job hunting!!! rawr

it's raining again... and i'm still awake


why can't Monday come fast?

excited

After a month and a half, i think of not being able to see each other, at last..


I'll be seeing you again..


I can't hardly wait!


xx Haze

katekyo again?

so me and my sis.. we're watching Katekyo Hitman Reborn

again...

for the second time around

awwww i miss Lambo

swibless

hun, 


I'm typing coz you can't read my text messages and you're asleep so i can't call you either. Sun has a way of punishing me for crimes i haven't yet committed. Its late and i'm thinking about you. Its raining and i remember how i used to write poems. Have i told you that i used to love scribbling poems and have someone else read them so that they would praise me? i'm such an attention seeker sometimes i hate my self for it.


But yeah.. i'm typing now and am trying to create a poem fit for what i feel now.


just a teeny tiny scribble is all. 

Rain falls on our rooftop
sounding like tiny stones 
Rain falls and you would hear a soft tap
i would listen to it
And hope it would finally stop


When it rains i think of you
what you're doing, are you good?
When it rains i think of you
where you are, do you think about me too?


I hate it when it rains
because the tapping sound makes me think
I hate it when it rains
because it makes me want to curl up in my bed  and shrink
I hate it when it rains
because its just so unfair
I hate it when it rains
because it really makes me care
I hate it when it rains
because it reminds me of you
I hate it when it rains
becuase i'll be up all night wanting to see you and wondering right those very moment, do you miss me too?

homey homey home home home

Can't say i'm complaining.. i love it here at home.


Maybe i'll get a regular job next month or so after i get my friggin back pay


I'll definitely save some for a vacay


For now its fun here @home ^_^

cemetery dayyy

okayy so we're going to the cemetery again. 
It's a yearly thing that we do..
so there..
i hope i don't get bored after 5 minutes..


and oh, i hope there're no bugs and mosquitoes (i wish)

Today is a fun fun fun Saturdayyy and i would like to have this kind of faucet someday!! 

i will also  tonight since i'm meeting with my beloved barkada. haha.


have a great day ahead!!

xx haze

a roar!!!

errr i hate it.. "Reckoning" has a really fucked up ending.


Why can't she just choose Graves and then live happily ever after?


Why did the series have to end without anyone getting togethers?


I seriously feel bad about the whole series now.. Why do you have to be sooooo like Hunger Games with the Mockingjay ending?


talk about anticlimactic

highly doubting

okay, so i know you;re not supposed to interfere with the author's story..

But oh my gosh, can you make Dru and Graves (of Strange Angels Series) end up together?

i mean i'd really hate it if she ends up with Christophe and Dru ends up together

see? i'd be like pikachu here!!!

I love Graves' character! ughhh don't make me regret reading the whole darn series.

The series is amazing by the way.. i think i'll be okay if its Christophe

i mean, i'll get over it eventually



Anyway.. i still hope its GRAVES!!!


gravely hoping

xx haze

" When you look, you see reflections of your being. When you listen, you hear echoes of yourself. If you don't like something about what you see and hear, no point in smashing the mirror, change who you are becoming. "


I love this message because it reminds me that a person is always capable of changing for the better. Yes, there's no point in smashing the mirror.. just accept that you cannot be perfect but, you could be better. 

"Offerings can come in many forms: a gift, a prayer, a smile, flowers, food. Offer something from your heart. "



reflection

When i was young.. i kinda thought that offering inside the church is cool. In my school, they let students offer something during the mass every first Friday of the month. I don't remember offering something that i my self bought (it was years and years ago, who knows?) but i remember the distinct feeling that i just wanted to offer something because i would get to walk at the center of the church. I knooww i'm super bad right? I realize that now. Its superficial, obnoxious and silly at some degree (hey! forgive a child!). 

Anyway.. i hope someday i get the chance to bring something for the church.




xx haze 

some things i learned from my grandmother

That i should be at home when its dark already


That i should not use the phone so much and if i will.. she'll be listening ^_^

That "biko" is my favorite dish and i should learn how its done


That you should not put your elbows in the dining table, it's a sign of bad luck

That its also bad to sing when you are at the dining table, it's a sign of disrespect.

That its good to be a nurse because i can help out people =)

"Have compassion for others when they cannot see what is obvious to you. Have compassion for yourself when you realize that you can see only a small part of God's vision for the world." reflection I think this message is telling me that i'm lucky to be able to see the bigger picture. I'm lucky because sometimes i see things and interpret their meaning  better than others.. but, that luck is not a reason for me to look down on other people. It is not a reason to be boastful. Hmmm.. i guess instead of doing those things, i God wants me to help those people out in understanding things that they're having problems on (that is, if i can help).  Hope to have a good day ahead at home.  xx haze

officially excited

So i was able to edit some stuffs here..

guess i'm good to go

yay!!

now if i could just place pink hearts, flowers, bears and all the pink heaven....... hmm ^_^

Will sleep now..

Hope to dream of pink laptops and hot pink nails

xx haze

opening of a new chapter

At last! i have a diary again.. of some sort. haha! How convenient that the first day i start this happen to also be the day that i got my clearance form from my previous job.  Anyway... i plan on sharing my everyday life, random thoughts, words and blurbs. 

First stop, a gift to my dear self 

yes, it's a pink plush bear for the opening of my new diary.

xx haze